Ambiguous

I’ve never been a pregnancy test taker. I’ve taken exactly two in my life: One on New Years Eve, so that I could give myself permission to drink like a sailor without feeling guilty about it, and one when my period was almost a week late and I was absolutely certain that I was pregnant. My cycles are so regular that I always get my period between day 25 and day 30.

Today is day 30, and still nothing.

I started testing on Saturday morning. I really can’t tell you what’s so different about this month other than the fact that I had picked up a few pregnancy tests a few months back and this is really the first opportunity I’ve had to use them. And there they were, sitting unopened in the medicine cabinet on Saturday morning when I decided, “What the hell.”

Four dollar store home pregnancy tests later and I don’t know if I’m pregnant, hallucinating or just plain crazy. On Saturday morning there was no second line. When I pulled the test out of the trash Saturday evening there was an oh-so-faint second line. Two ambiguous maybe-its-there-or-maybe-its-just-a-shadow lines followed on Sunday and then again this morning. Then I switched brands figuring that maybe the first brand of test was just faulty. New brand, same damn vague line.

I spent the afternoon Googling. Really, I should know better to open THAT can of worms. Google told me that any second line means that the test is positive – unless, of course, it’s an evaporation line. I threw the sticks in the trash and then dug them out again so many times that I honestly don’t know if those second lines were there or not within the first five minutes after taking the tests. Only I could so badly screw up the simple task of peeing on a stick.

Due to my lack of experience in this area, I don’t know if what I’m seeing is an evaporation line or a positive result or a faulty test or perhaps there is nothing there at all and I just need new glasses. What I do know is that there are currently 4 HPTs in my trash with what appear to be two very, very faint pink lines. Also, the next 12 or so hours are going to go by very, very slowly because I am out of HPTs!

Comments

[Pam]

Ooooh... hoping good thoughts!

With this pregnancy, even though the night we conceived, I thought, "I bet if we have sex tonight I will get pregnant with a girl." And I still got three faint-ass lines on the three pregnancy tests I took until I finally gave up and waited a week to pee on the OB's stick.

And I'm 30 weeks today.

Seriously, though, I had saved the test from Zach, and eventually, even faint lines turn into evaporation lines and all lines will fade completely after six months or so (or whenever you remember that you have something you peed on in your underwear drawer).

[Leggy]

Isn't day 30 enough time for the doc to do a blood test? Can you call and tell him your HPTs are unclear?

If they are getting less faint each day, then I think you are PG. But I know what you mean re: they are so faint its hard to tell.

Hoping you really are PG. Keep us posted.

[Linda]

Dude! Where are the expensive HPTs and re-testing results? Your blog readers need to know!

[Aimee]

Congrats! I'm so excited for you! I'm sending lots of prayers your way.